I don't know how to move on

Its's been 10months since my husband (31) passed away.

There is so much I'm thinking about and so much I don't know how to say and I don't know who to talk to. Counselling and all would be great if I had the funds,but I feel like if I could just talk. Tell someone everything, like everything. The good the bad the ugly. Everything and just get it off my chest one time. Will I feel better? I don't know, there's just so many things unsaid. So many.