So tired of living

Am I the only one that is tired of this new existence? I know it’s been over 2 years but it seems like only yesterday that he died. I’m so fucked. I want out of this fucking unfair world. I miss him. I hate my life now and I can’t wait to go. I know everyday I am getting closer to my love, but when will it end?

Edit: I’m so sorry to be posting again. I only post when I’m drunk, I hate my life, honestly. Without my love there is no life worth living.