Pre-Travel Anxiety As You Age

Been solo traveling for over 25 yrs. Lately my body goes into defensive mode right before a trip like the week of. I want to curl up into a little ball and sip herbal tea under a blanket and hide from all of it. Suddenly my little apartment is THE place to be. Not to mention I will need to wake up at 1am to leave for the airport on time....worse than waking up for school :) Hating my decision to book a trip. Usually it goes away once I settle in but staying at an Airbnb this time due to costs....Puerto Rico. What if there is a power outage and no AC or generator to keep it going ???? Annnnnxxxiiious.

This used to be a breeze for me. Not anymore.

Anyone else feel this ?

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