Have you also become desensitized to death?

Today, a distant relative of mine passed away and my mom was upset but I didn’t feel anything. Maybe she had a soft spot for her, I’m not sure. I’ve noticed that even when someone close in my family has passed away, I didn’t feel much either.

The only times I recall feeling genuinely affected were last year when a senior of mine died in a rta and I saw his crushed face. Another time was on my first day of internship in the medicine department. Within the 1st hour, a poisoning patient came in and he was having seizures. I was holding his hand while my jr was either placing an iv line or administering a drug(I can’t remember exactly) and while I was holding him, he passed away in my hands. That day, I felt bad. But over the past two years, despite witnessing several deaths up close, I haven’t felt much.

Is it just me, or have you also become somewhat desensitized? I’ve only worked during my internship, and I sometimes worry about how emotionally detached I might become after pg or srship😅