CS2 ruined my life

I have been addicted to gambling for ten years now. I particularly enjoy betting on esports matches, especially CS2 tournaments. Over the past decade, I’ve lost a total of 1 million Malaysian Ringgit. I am so tired. I feel like my life has been a constant struggle. I’m already 30 years old, and my monthly salary is 8,000 Ringgit, but I am in debt to the tune of 200,000 Ringgit.

I still come from a good family, but I am on the verge of destroying everything I have. I feel hopeless, and sometimes, I even feel like I can’t go on anymore. The weight of the debt and the despair I feel are overwhelming. I truly feel like I am at the end of my rope.

I know this is a difficult situation, and I feel like I’m trapped. But I can’t help but wonder if there is a way out. Is there still hope for me? Can I somehow rebuild my life, or is it too late? I am lost, struggling with my addiction, and overwhelmed by the consequences of my actions.

If anyone out there has been through something similar, or if there is a way for me to turn things around, I would appreciate any advice or support.