anyone else been here

My long term memory is really good but well everybody is wowed that I can recognize every country's flag, or all the french kings. People don't seem fucking get how much for that can really be. That includes inability to forget moments of being bullied, at which point your mind jumps to "what you should've done" scenarios, and before you know it, you're screaming at phantoms. Why does nobody get how hard that really is on me. Or how about when you remember something from many years ago perfectly, and people can't recognize what you're fucking talking about. do you know how annoying that is. Why can't those fucking NTs get that this a both a blessing and a curse, and that the curse part hurts and is frustrating? Don't tell me to stop holding on to these bad memories, do you know what I'd do to be able to forget them? None of you stupid NTs understand, hell no one understands.