I feel betrayed by my boyfriend

Problem/Goal: Before kami naging official ng bf ko, I told him na virgin pa ako, like I really value my virginity and I want to give it only to my future husband. I was 25 then, and I stressed out how important it is for me to keep that special moment for the right person.

During our talking stage, he also shared his experience. He told me he had only slept with one person, and even then, he claimed he didn’t really want to because he was drunk and taken advantage of. I was a bit put off by it because for me sex is something sacred na dapat ginagawa lang with someone you truly love. Even if you're drunk, you should know what you’re doing. We argued about it, but eventually, I accepted na okay na yun since it happened already and there's nothing I could do.

Fast forward: we got into a relationship, did long distance for a while, and finally met in person. We were super comfortable with each other, and I fell deeply in love with him. Eventually, I decided to give myself to him, believing he was my person—the one I’d marry and spend my life with.

Context: But then, I found out something about his past that he kept from me. Nalaman ko na after his first girlfriend broke up with him, he stayed single for years, but during that time, he entered a “hoe phase". Yes, you read that right! He had casual hookups, Fubu, and one-night stand. He deliberately hid this from me because he knew I wouldn’t be able to accept it. Sabi niya, he was afraid to tell me kasi nung unang beses na nag-share siya, nagalit ako. He told me he wanted to keep me, so he chose to keep silent.

Now I'm super shocked and furious. I feel so betrayed. He knew how much I valued this, yet he let me believe something else about him. I don’t even know how to react. He’s a good man in every other way—family-oriented, responsible, respectful, husband material. But now, I can’t help but feel like he manipulated me into believing he was different.

Previous Attempts: I don’t know how to process this feeling, so I just need to let it out. Am I overreacting? Is it wrong that I feel so hurt by this? Need some advice. 🥺