Omg what? I just found out I don’t have inner monologue!!!!

Pardon my French but what the fuck? I always thought internal monologue is this inner voice that you activate by choice, and it can sometimes activate on its own if I’m reading something and I’m trying to concentrate hard but that’s it.

I was reading a self help book and it was talking about negative internal monologue and I was like wait a minute, I don’t do that shit. Or positive talk for that matter?

Turns out I don’t use internal monologue unless I am trying to focus on something and it’s alll images and concepts and intuition and a very messy process where things just string together without my inner world doing anything obvious with words attached together.

I have immersive (maladaptive but not too bad in my situation) daydreaming so aphantasia is out of the question.

What even the fuck? Do you guys have running internal monologues that you do not activate? What’s your situation?