help me. i want to stop taking antidepressants.

hi. i've been taking antidepressants (escitalopram) since September 2023. it was all good at first pero andaming triggering events na nangyari that it got worse. my psychiatrist knows it kaya tumaas ng 20 mg yung dosage ko. pero recently, di na rin maganda effect sakin ng escitalopram.

right now, i'm starting to lose hope and confidence that things will get better. i don't have anybody as my emotional support system. i don't really have any go-to person and i can't confide with my family because they are emotionally absent.

please help me. what do i do? should i ask my psychiatrist to help me gradually stop taking antidepressant? nawawalan na talaga ako ng lakas tulungan sarili ko.

please help me. please tell me how you guys help yourself whenever you're in a similar situation. what helps you continue the fight?

EDIT:

hello po ulit. thank you guys for giving me insights <3 will consider everything you guys said. thank you for saving me from this breakdown