Di niya masagot tanong ko huhu
Context: May trauma siya sa past rs niya na almost all nag cheat sa kanya. Hindi siya expressive through texts/words pero reactive lang siya if in real life, puro sweet gesture and nagpaplano sa future namen and he once told me before na dating stage kami, but ako lagi nag-initiate ng plans/convos/dates. Kung di ko siya kakausapin di din kami mag-uusap. I always feel neglected and tried to communicate this to him na bakit ako lagi nagchachat tas reason niya busy lang daw. Gets ko naman na busy kase software engineer siya and kaka graduate palang, stressed out pati may sideline as a Taekwondo coach so gets kong pagod lagi. He's the type na mahirap basahin idk why.
Yung na meet ko siya wala siya sa maayos na mental state and nasa self destructive phase. Aware naman ako na baka dahil lang to sa mindset na 'I can fix him' typa shite but mahal ko na tong taong to e, and sobrang na-appreciate ko na nakikinig siya saken and nagtatry siyang i-improve sarili niya step by step. Yung mga bad habits niya dati, tinigil na niya and tinanggap niya yung pagiging Taekwondo coach after kong sabihin sa kanya despite him being stressed out already. Pero since may past siya na mostly affected yung trust ko sa kanya (not cheating), he's not expressive/assertive kahit tina-try niya communicate love niya thru acts of service, I still feel neglected kase need ko ng clarity TT
Idk if I should give him time and space to think? Or should I just leave? I don't want to leave kase gustong gusto ko siya pero kaya ko naman mag move on pero I need to know first what he feels but he's not giving me clarity and still di ko sure kung dahil ba gusto niya ko pero may trauma siya? OR hindi talaga ko gusto pero uncomfortable lang akong ireject?Gusto niya lang yung validation? AaaaaAaaaaa ang gulo.