Just got dumped after 4 years

Only thing I can say is I’m shocked and sad. He was acting strange the last 2 days, wouldn’t talk. So today, I was like what is going on? He gave the whole shpeel that it’s him & not me. That he’s not ready for marriage and commitment and that he simply doesn’t feel the same anymore mentally and physically. The physically part hurt lol cause I’m not ugly, but that sure made me feel ugly.

I keep trying to find reasons or what I did wrong. My mom told me to stop doing that. That it’s him and this is his decision. It’s the weirdest thing and so random but he said he made the decision a few days ago. We had plans for my birthday coming up and everything. He even told me happy anniversary on March 9 happy and what not. It’s just odd. We had a very healthy relationship. I’m in healthcare. He’s in law enforcement. We had a good thing going or so I thought.

Feeling sad that 4 years is over in such a coward manner. I’m turning 32 in 2 weeks. Appreciate comments. Feeling sad.